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This is also home of the site formerly known as Berry *Delicious* Nick Carter stories. The stories here contain explicit sexual content so proceed with an open mind.
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"Fantasy/Reality part 66 - It's Christmas Time Again!"
It took me a couple of months but I finally wrote the part I've had on mind since probably 2008! The story is reaching the home stretch but honestly I haven't exactly pictured the ending yet. I really appreciate all the kind words and feedback I've received on this story. I know I suck at replying to comments but I do read them all.
A lot has happened since I updated last. I got hired at a company that does DVD transfers for major retailers like Costco, Wal Mart, and CVS. If you've ever seen these services offered in those stores, it's the company I work for that does the transferring. I'm just so happy to be working and for a fabulous company... and to be making money to fund my future Backstreet Boys events!
Speaking of future Backstreet Boys events... I'm going on the 2013 cruise! This time I'm going all out. I splurged on a Junior Suite with 2 other fans. We originally wanted a Grand Suite but they sold out FAST! I cannot wait to cruise with Backstreet Boys again!
Backstreet has been keeping themselves occupied this upcoming holiday season by releasing a Christmas song. I LOVE the song so much! It's so catchy and has been stuck in my head ever since it came out! They've been in LA promoting it at Disneyland and at The Grove. I wish I could have gone to see them perform but I'm trying to be patient and save my days off for future events.
I can't believe the Holidays are approaching! Next week is Thanksgiving and then Christmas soon after. Time goes by so fast. Pretty soon it'll be 2013!
Dawn - I'm glad you enjoyed my previous update! The picture I used is a bit Christian Grey'ish. I'd rather have Nick than him though :p
Loraine - Thank you for your kind words! I really appreciate you taking the times to read my stories! I plan to keep on writing until I'm an old lady lol I look forward to you reading more of my stories!
"Fantasy/Reality part 65 - Happy Belated Anniversary to Berry *Delicious* Nick Carter Stories"
August 2nd was Berry *Delicious* Nick Carter Stories' 13th anniversary. I launched my website on August 2nd, 1999 on AOL's website hosting service.
It's amazing I'm still around with my own domain when so many have faded away. I don't plan on going anywhere even though I have some haters and naysayers. I have a gazillion stories swirling in my brain. Nick is that good :p
Read Fantasy/Reality Part 65 here
It's painful being a perfectionist sometimes. I'm nitpicky over the tiniest details and that's why it took a while for me to get part 65 the way I see it in my mind. There was a lot of cutting and adding on my behalf. Feedback is appreciated.
I swear I'm not trying to drag this story out. I want it finished as much as you all want it to be but I want to land it smoothly. There's probably a few more parts to go if my imagination doesn't get annoyed lol
Nick just finished doing two shows in Chile and Argentina. I know it's his job to travel around the world and perform but I can't help feel tired for him from all the traveling he's done this year alone.
I love this picture of him from Chile. I posted on Twitter/Facebook that I just want to lay him down on that table and... since this is my website I can finish my thought: ride him rough :p lol
Click here for more pictures of Nick in Argentina.
Next for Nick is doing the Mixtape Festival in PA. I feel like everyone is going but me. I've been trying to win tickets. Hopefully it'll work out in my favor!
Then after Mixtape he's doing 2 shows in Canada. I almost indulged myself into seeing him in Vancouver but I had to remind myself that there's still more Backstreet to come in 2013 & that I need to save my cashhhhh.
Jenna - Thanks for thinking it was my excellent update. I strive to do my best :)
"Fantasy/Reality Part 64 - Nick killed me three times"
Happy Memorial Day!
Fantasy/Reality part 64 is available for your reading pleasure. This part was easy for me to write. I wrote it in less than a week. Feedback is greatly appreciated. I need to know what you all think about it.
I planned to update two weeks ago but postponed it since I went to Fresno with my parents for a baptism. Then the following week I was busy working on my final exam for my Small Business Management class I took. Which by the way I got an A+ on!
This morning I found the energy to update. I hope you enjoy it. Let me know what you think!
The NKOTBSB tour is winding down for Backstreet and New Kids. I wish I could see them one last time. If only I could win the lottery!
On Saturday, Nick tweeted on Twitter that he wanted to play a game called Team Fortress 2 with fans. I figured it wouldn't hurt to try so I downloaded the game and did a little training.
When Nick finally got online to play the game, I joined in and it was so hard for me to understand. I kept dying in the game! Nick killed me 3 times! lmao
The game sucked up a lot of my computer's memory so after playing for about 30 minutes I got kicked off. When I tried to get back in it said the server was full. Apparently only 32 players are allowed at one time. I guess I was lucky enough to at least get the chance to play with him and other fans for a little while.
Nick is too good at the game though. It's kind of not fair :p When he killed me for the 2nd time I barely had time to click my mouse to shoot him when he shot me to death *pout*
Oh, the things I do for Nick Carter. I admit, I'm not really a gamer type of person but for Nick I'll give it a try. I did a little practicing on Sunday and it was kind of theraputic shooting things. I can understand why he likes the game. It's a nice tension reliever.
Nick also seemed to be on a Twitter spree this weekend. It's a breath of fresh air to see him tweet for himself and not those silly auto-tweets management set for him about whatever upcoming show or after party.
Nick tweeted about things being sad and trying to keep his mind off things by playing games online. In a way it's comforting to know that a man who has a ton of people who admire him and seems to have it all get sad too. I'll be glad to cheer him up if I could... muahaha
Marloes - I'm glad you came back after a long time and that you have Twitter again! Thank you for loving the new chapters and I hope you enjoy the next one. I miss NKOTBSB so much. At least you got to see them recently in Rotterdam. Nick indeed is soooo HOT. I can't handle it sometimes lol
"Fantasy/Reality Part 62 & 63 - Happy 19th Anniversary Backstreet Boys! "
Your eyes are not deceiving you. I have updated the story with two parts. I think the last time I had a double part update was in 2008 lol I'm not making any promises but I feel like the story is approaching the home stretch.
I know Monday is the an odd day for an update. Personally I'd prefer to update on the weekend but I was distracted this weekend when I went to Stanford to watch Maroon 5 perform a free concert! I had to stand in the blistering heat in general admission but I had fun. I always love hearing music live. Nothing can match the energy of Backstreet Boys live though!
Don't read any further if you want a potential spoiler...
(I'm giving you a chance to click away lol)
I hope that it makes sense to you all that the current year of Fantasy/Reality parts 62 & 63 is 2009. I think I posted the story in 2007 with the intention of it happening in real time but then as I started to slowly update it, I had in mind that Viola was pregnant in 2008 with a due date in 2009.
Since Fantasy/Reality is almost done I've been brainstorming ideas for another story. What type of story o you think I should delve into next? I've been struggling with trying to figure out what kind of plots suck people in. I don't know if I want to keep doing long stories or go back to how I first started with short stories.
April 20th, 2012 was Backstreet Boys' 19th anniversary together as a group! I'm so happy that they've been together for so long and are still pushing strong together. I hope they have another 19 years and more in them.
Nick tweeted this picture of them with their anniversary cake. He looks so serious lol You'd think he'd be a teensy bit more smiley. I love that his belt is undone. *wiggles eyebrows*
Backstreet is in Europe with New Kids for their European leg of the NKOTBSB tour. I wish I had the money to fly overseas to see them. I know I got the chance to see Nick already twice this year but I'm going through withdrawals. Anyone seeing them in Europe? Please do share your experience if you are.
Also, later this year on August 17th and August 18th, Backstreet and New Kids will perform together the Mixtape Fest in PA. Once again the west coast is dissed. I'd love to go but the price is so expensive for a general admission event.
Although, I am aware that the VIP includes a meet and greet with New Kids. I haven't met any of the New Kids and I have this craving to meet them. I don't think I'll go though since I'm trying to save as much pennies as I can for the Backstreet cruise.
I keep dreaming about the Backstreet cruise. I dream that I'm either on it or I'm about to get on the boat.
Also, in more vain news, Nick's hair is still long! He is the only guy I can let slide with long hair. I admit, I'm surprised he hasn't cut it yet. I thought he would cut it for the NKOTBSB European tour.
Also, in even more vainer news, I just noticed a few weeks ago Nick's "new" teeth. I remember during his birthday, fans online went crazy over his teeth and I was like what are you all talking about? Apparently, he got veneers and it wasn't obvious me until I saw a recent picture of him.
I admit, it kind of makes me sad that he felt the need to get his teeth fixed when I loved his original teeth. He's always had a beautiful smile so it sort of baffles me that he felt he needed to improve it. Now his teeth just look a tad bit overly white in pictures. In person, it's not really noticable though.
Here's a recent picture of him in his house:
Dawn - I'm glad you enjoyed the update! Aw, you don't drive? I'd drive you if I could! I used to be in your position too years ago when I couldn't drive and had no money to see Backstreet but thankfully that changed so I believe your time will come too!
Jenna - Thanks! I hope you enjoy parts 62 & 63 too. The twins are coming soon but I don't know exactly when and I want to keep you in suspense. I won't drag the pregnancy out another four years though!
"Fantasy/Reality Part 61 - Nick's Birthday in Vegas Review"
Aren't you glad you didn't have to wait 6 months for another update? I hope you all enjoy part 61 of Fantasy/Reality. I know some of you are dying to find out what happens next.
In my previous website update I talked about attending Nick's birthday fan event. You can read a review of my experience on http://www.eliminatefullprice.com
Also, in my previous website update I wrote that I was holding myself back from flying my ass to see Nick on the east coast. My restraints weren't strong. I ended up flying to Columbus, OH for the last show of his "I'm Taking Off" solo tour. I haven't written a review on it yet so stay tuned for that. I am glad I went.
I'm also glad that I got to meet two people who visit my website and read my stories: Steph. W. and Sherri! (Haha I just realized both their names start with "S.")
I hope that I can meet some of you in the future. There's a rumor that Nick might do another solo tour in the summer time after the European NKOTBSB tour.
I know it's super early but I'm already excited for the 3rd Backstreet Boys cruise in summer 2013. I love that Brian got his way. He really wanted the next cruise to be in summer 2013 and it happened.
For those who dont' follow Backstreet Boys on Twitter, the account tweeted that the next cruise would happen in summer 2013. That gives me time to find money to pay for it.
I don't dream about Nick often but today I had an awesome dream moment with him. He was wearing the Crush orange soda shirt and all I did was rake all my fingers through his blonde hair. It was a short moment but I loved it. I wish it would become reality lol
Honey - It seems that Nick is in a "long hair" phrase. While I do prefer him with the spikey hair, I honestly don't mind it long. If his hair gets to be long like mine which is up to my butt then I'll probably reconsider my opinion.
Dawn - You're welcome! You know me, I like to try to give a little punch at the end of my writing to keep readers intrigued ;) As I said to Honey, I don't mind Nick's hair the way it is now. He seems to go through phases with his hair and I'm sure he'll eventually get it cut shorter in the future.
"Fantasy/Reality Part 60 - Happy 32nd Birthday Nick! - New Shoutbox"
Yay, this is the first Fantasy/Reality update of 2012. I really hope to get this story finished this year but then again this story writes itself sometimes.
I set a goal for myself to finish writing part 60 before Nick's 32nd birthday. I achieved my goal so I present to you all Fantasy/Reality Part 60. As always any feedback is appreciated... just don't make me cry :p
Happy 32nd Birthday to Nick!!!
Wow, he's old! (Just kidding.) Yes, it's almost that time of year again for January 28th.
Who is going to see Nick during his very small "I'm Taking Off" solo tour? Once again the west coast is getting dissed from having his tour. I was extremely tempted to fly my ass to one of his tour dates on the east coast. I had to hold back even though I have enough airline miles for a one way ticket anywhere in the United States.
Another reason I held back was... I was crazy enough to purchase a spot with Hang With The Band for Nick's birthday event in Las Vegas. I honestly don't know what to expect and I still can't believe I'm going through with this. I just hope it's worth it since it's the closest thing I'm getting to a solo Nick Carter event. I also enjoy the atmosphere of Vegas so seeing Nick is an added bonus.
On the left I added a new Shoutbox. I don't know how many characters it can hold. Feel free to try it and give me shout.
"Happy Birthday Flirting With Obscene! - My 2011 Backstreet Boys Cruise Review!"
Five years ago today I went from Berry *Delicious* Nick Carter Stories to Flirting With Obscene. I just love how the phrase "Flirting With Obscene" relates to what I write. Hopefully there will be five more years and more of this website.
I don't have any fan fiction updates but to tide you over I have my extremely long 2011 Backstreet Boys Cruise Review. You can read it on my other website here:
I'm also running a contest for US fans who read my cruise review so check it out on Eliminate Full Price!
I don't have a shoutbox anymore. Shoutmix decided to eliminate free service. I don't feel like trying to find another shout box but if you know of any feel free to e-mail me jocelyncontest (@) gmail. com.
The last message I remember on the shoutbox is from KAB so I'll reply to that comment.
KAB - I'm glad you enjoyed the latest part of Fantasy/Reality. I'll definitely keep the jungle fever idea in mind. One of my favorite fan fiction stories actually involves Nick & a black woman but the writer hasn't updated it since like 2003.
"Fantasy/Reality Part 59 - Well hello there..."
Tell me I'm not the only one fascinated by Nick's sideburns in the picture I put on the top of this website?
Wow, the last time I updated this website was way back in June. I really don't have a good excuse on why it took me so long to update. I have no control over my creativity and it drives me nuts. I wish I could be like other writers and just write almost everyday.
I've spent the past couple of months with the Fantasy/Reality part 59 document open on my computer screen but my mind couldn't transform my visions into words.
I typically have the foundation of what I want to happen in a part for Fantasy/Reality. What's tough for me is adding the fluff and details to help the story get from point A to point B.
I really thought I wouldn't be able to write part 59 the way I pictured it in my mind. I was even thinking I probably wouldn't be able to write until 2013 lol (Yes, I'm dramatic :p)
Out of nowhere this past Sunday morning, what I wanted to write just flowed out of my brain and into words. I wish I could write like that all the time.
I hope you all enjoy the next part and any feedback is appreciated.
I'm going on the Backstreet Boys cruise this week! I can't believe the months just flew by. If you're going don't be afraid to come up to me and say 'hi.' I'll be on deck 4 in cabin R62.
I'm very overwhelmed since I haven't packed yet and I leave for Miami on December 1st so I have to get to doing that after I update here.
Steph. W. - Hi! Thanks for showing Flirting With Obscene love. FWO loves you right back!
Just One Kiss - Aw! I'm glad you found Flirting With Obscene too! I hope you keep coming back. I'm very flattered you think my stories are amazing!
Guest - Thank you for liking Fantasy/Reality. It's like my baby since I pour everything I have into it. I hope you enjoy the new update. I'm so sorry it took me so long to update the story.
Pleasure Cooking - Hm.. I don't think you're a real person but I'll say hi to you anyway :p
Marloes - Thanks for twittering me (lol that sounds so dirty). I love getting messages either on here or Twitter so feel free to contact me wherever you like. I hope you enjoy part 59 of Fantasy/Reality. Aw, I'm really glad you love my stories and Nick too lol
"Fantasy/Reality Part 58 - NKOTBSB tour!"
Excuse the bold font. Dreamweaver won't let me unbold it.
I added part 58 of Fantasy/Reality. I honestly didn't realize the last time I updated it was the end of January. I really hate that I can't write this story faster but I guess as the saying goes, "Slow and steady wins the race?"
As usual, any feedback is appreciated.
Who's excited for Backstreet touring again?! The tour started in late May and will end in August. As of right now I'm going to see Backstreet in San Jose on July 2nd & Las Vegas on July 3rd.
I gave into temptation and I'm seeing Backstreet in Vegas again. I really want to get out of the house for a weekend and seeing Backstreet in another state is a perfect excuse to do so. Plus I love the atmosphere of Vegas.
I'm also considering going to the Anaheim show on July 6th but I have nothing planned for that yet.
If you're going to any of those shows let me know because I'm always willing to meet fellow Backstreet fans :D
For the San Jose & Vegas shows my seat is near the tip of the penis stage lol I was worried about my seats but from watching videos on youtube I see that Backstreet gives lots of love all over the penis stage.
It looks like I don't have any comments to reply to in the shoutbox :( What am I supposed to do now? lol
"New short story entitled 'Writing the Wrong - NKOTBSB tour starts soon! - 2011 Bsb Cruise! - Infamous shirtless picture of Nick'"
Wow! It's been about 4 months since I've updated. I have a new short story entitled "Writing the Wrong" for you all to read that will hopefully tide you all over until I post the next part of Fantasy/Reality.
A few weeks ago on YouTube I discovered Adele's cover of The Steeldrivers song "If It Hadn't Been For Love." I was fascinated by the lyrics.
On Sunday May 8th, I had an itch to write something not Fantasy/Reality lol I wanted to write something loosely based on the song "If It Hadn't Been For Love". I wasn't feeling my original idea so I scrapped it and dug deeper into my brain.
Then I started to flow and wrote about half of the story Sunday evening and early Monday morning. I eventually finished it by Thursday.
It's been a while since I've finished a fresh idea within a week. It usually takes me months or years before I can even gather enough creativity to finish a story.
Finishing and writing this story reminded me that I do have the ability to write and finish a story. I let my mind drive the story and didn't hold anything back.
Then while Nick was in Germany, one of the many talk shows he appeared on made him take a fake mugshot picture. The picture was just so perfect for what I wrote and it fit the song.
I hope you enjoy the story and any feedback is appreciated.
As for Fantasy/Reality, I have written some of the next part but I can't find myself to let go like I did with writing "Writing the Wrong." I've written about 1,600 words so far but I don't want to update yet. I want to be able to give you all something more to read than a short little part.
The NKOTBSB tour starts next week! Who's going? As of right now I'm going to the July 2nd show in San Jose, Ca. I'm still debating if I want to go all out like I did last year with the "This is Us" tour and go to multiple shows.
I'm considering going to the Vegas or Anaheim show. The LA show is a maybe. Honestly, I'm trying to figure out the order of the Platinum VIP backstage tour since I only want to do it if Nick's doing it.
Which NKOTBSB shows are you going to?
I'm officially booked on the Backstreet Boys 2011 cruise! If you follow me on twitter http://www.twitter.com/berrydelicious/ then you'd already know this. I couldn't resist going again since I had a good time last year. I am a bit nervous about the full chartered boat.
Who else is going on the Backstreet Boys 2011 cruise? I hope we can meet if you go!
I know this is probably old news but I want to mention it. I'm sure by now you've seen this infamous picture of Nick:
Apparently the picture was taken by Lauren, (his girlfriend if you've been living under a rock lol). I remember years ago back in 2005, I blogged here about how I wish Nick would go shirtless often. Ever since 2007 when he started his weight loss, so many shirtless pictures of him have surfaced.
At least with the picture, I now have a better idea of what it would look like if I sat on top of him :p It is a delicious picture. *sigh* Oh, the things I want to do to his body. Mmm...
What do you all think about the picture? lol
Dawn - Aw, thanks for thinking my writing was great on F/R 57 and A Knockout Valentine's Day :D
Jenna - I say if you're inspired, take advantage of it and let your creativity flow. Having inspiration is such a beautiful feeling. I used to write a lot of poetry when I was in high school but I haven't written any poems lately. Also, thank you so much for the feedback on my Valentine's Day story. I can't say for sure if there will be another part to it but I'm really flattered that you want to read more about Nick and Sadie. It felt really good to finally get the story written after having it stored in my brain for years.
"Better late than never: A Knockout Valentine's Day - I'm Taking Off - Bsb in South America!"
I gave myself a headache trying to remember what year I started this Valentine's Day story. I think I started it either late 2008 or early 2009. I wrote about half of it in 2009 and then stopped. I had what I wanted to happen in my mind since then but I tucked it away with the other unwritten story ideas in my head.
Since February is the month of Valentine's Day, I was once again reminded of the story I started but never finished. When I found it, I encouraged myself to finally finish it. I wanted to finish it before Valentine's Day but I couldn't write fast enough. I figure it's better late than never to post it. I don't want to wait until next years Valentine's Day to post it.
Any feedback is appreciated.
Nick recently wrapped up promoting "I'm Taking Off" in Japan. He did a couple of shows there. Youtube user aphiromi uploaded a bunch of videos from one of the shows he did in Japan.
My favorite is his performance of "Falling Down." I haven't fully listened to his entire album yet. I ordered it off Amazon and I'm still waiting for it to arrive. So far my favorite songs are "Burning Up," "Falling Down," and "I'm Taking Off."
"Falling Down" from Japan:
"I'm Taking Off" from Japan:
Backstreet are currently touring in South America. I'm glad that the fans in that region get to see the "This is Us" tour. I know I have some readers in South America who are going to some shows so I hope you all have fun. If you have any pictures and videos you want to share let me know.
They recently did a press conference in Brazil. It looked like Nick got a new tattoo near his elbow but upon closer inspection it was just the shadow of a glass near him.
Then today the Backstreet Boys Twitter account posted this picture of them eating BBQ! I love Nick and his v-neck t-shirts.
Dawn - I hope you saw my wall post on your fb for part 56.
Jenna - Thanks for waiting patiently for an update and for checking my site once a week. It's very reassuring to know I get regular visitors even though I've been slow in updating. It makes me happy to know that you love Fantasy/Reality and the direction I decided to take with it. Apparently Aaron went to the Betty Ford Clinic for a month for something like "spiritual healing." I did finally fix the link to the "The Episodes" since a lot of readers have been asking about it.
_britters_ - I have tried Craigslist. I've submitted a ton of resumes/cover letters on the job postings but rarely get a reply. I have gotten a few interviews but it never goes past that. I hate that they ask such tough questions during interviews. I do my research and try to anticipate what questions I'll get asked but I get questions tough questions. I hate it. I wish I was sharp and witty in answering. I'm not very good at communicating my thoughts verbally. I'm so much more comfortable writing my replies but job interviews aren't done that way. I hope you got a chance to read F/R part 57. I look forward to your comment.
Marloes - Aw, that's too bad. It would've been funny if you knew those people lol I'm flattered you thought part 57 was amazing. I haven't started part 58 yet but I'm hoping to get around to it soon.
"Fantasy/Reality part 57 - Happy Belated Birthday Nick! - I'm Taking Off!"
Holy Shish Kabob, it's been a while since I've updated. I have a brand new part of Fantasy/Reality up for your reading pleasure. I hope you enjoy it. I'm kind of hoping for more than 1 person to comment this time lol *wishful thinking*
It was Nick's 31st birthday this past Friday. I had a Sprinkles cupcake in his honor. I think he looks so good for someone over 30.
I'm berry excited for Nick's solo album "I'm Taking Off." The title track "I'm Taking Off" has been stuck in my head for the past couple of days. I love it. It's so Nick which is why I think he decided to name his album after it.
It also reminds me of my story "Out of this World" where Nick fucks an alien from another planet.
You can listen to the song "I'm Taking Off" here: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=smfqcY5CBcw
I also love his song "Burning Up." I first heard it when he played on the Backstreet Boys cruise in December 2010. It's a hot song. (Of course it is because it's called "Burning Up" :p)
You can listen to "Burning Up" here:
I'm trying to not listen to anymore leaks of the album until I have an actual copy in my hands. I've already heard 6 songs. My plan is to get it off Amazon with the gift codes I have won.
His album is also available for sale on his website nickcarter.net. After shipping and other fees it costs about $32.
I'm looking at the last time I updated my site and saw I haven't updated since Thanksgiving. I didn't even address my experience on the cruise here. In case you don't follow me on Twitter or Facebook you can read my entire cruise review here: http://www.eliminatefullprice.com/2010/12/2010-backstreet-boys-cruise-was-such.html
The Backstreet Boys cruise was such an AMAZING experience. I want to go again if there's another one. It cost a lot of pretty pennies for me but it was worth it. If there is another cruise I'm taking applications for who wants to be my roommate ;)
There's just so much drama happening in my family right now. I don't want to bring anyone down so I won't go into details. (However if you follow me on Twitter or Facebook you can see my heat of the moment angry status updates/tweets.)
The drama is part of the reason I'm having a difficult time writing anything. I have a ton of stress in my life and I hate it. It's very frustrating. When will I be freeeeeeeeee?
Apparently, my uncle is suspicious of how much traveling I've done for the Backstreet Boys. He thinks I'm spending my cousin's inheritance money and the money they receive from Social Security when that is so far from the truth. Every single penny I have spent on my Backstreet adventures has been mine.
Plus many of you know I'm heavily interested in contests and getting discounts so that is what helped me saved so much. I've also sold some items online like on eBay which helped fund the 6 "This is Us" tour concerts I went to in 2010.
I'll be upfront and say I made nearly $1,800 from what I sold in 2009-2010. I also got a settlement check worth $205 from my old job at the theme park Great America. That put my tour fund to over $2,000.
Then my parents claimed me as a dependent on their 2009 income tax. They got an extra $600 on their tax refund which they gave to me. If they didn't claim me then they wouldn't have gotten that extra $600. That is how I was able to do the higher levels of VIP so many times and pay for my concert tickets. I don't spend money I don't have. If I didn't sell anything online or win gift cards I don't think I would have gone to as many Bsb concerts as I did.
For example my concert ticket for the "This is Us" show in Las Vegas only cost me $4.50 because I had won a $100 from UPS last year so I used it to buy a $50 Ticketmaster gift card and then used the remaining $50 to buy a $50 gas card.
Then for the cruise, I used my own personal savings to pay for it.
It's just so ridiculous that I can't even go out and eat a burger without my uncles and aunt thinking I'm using my cousin's money when I'm not. I have my own money. I have zero interest in my cousin's money.
My uncles and aunt even think that my cousin's money paid for my college tuition which is total bullshit. For the first 2 years I had a Cal Grant that gave me over $1,200 a semester. For my 3rd and 4th year my mom generously used her own money for my tuition.
The sad part is even if I explain this to my uncles and aunt they won't believe me. They'll forever believe me as a moocher of my cousin's money.
April - Hopefully we'll get an opportunity again in the future to meet up. Maybe on the next Bsb cruise if there is one? lol *wishful thinking* I'm actually considering selling my LA NKOTBSB concert ticket and going to the show in Anaheim instead. We'll see lol
Marloes - It always amazes when someone from outside the United States reads my stories. I'm very flattered you like my stories and that you're from Holland. A relative of mine actually married someone from there. I'll laugh if you're related to her husband lol Their last name is Van Olphen. Any relation? lol
Melissa - Thanks for the tips on Nick's songs. I've already heard "Not the Other Guy," "Just One Kiss," and "Scream." I'm trying to not listen to anymore leaks but I love what I've heard so far. I can't wait to order my own copy of his solo album.
_britters_- Don't worry about not commenting. I totally understand but I'm glad that you finally caught up on Fantasy/Reality. I'm just happy you're still reading my story! :D I know I already told you on twitter but I want to congratulate you again on getting a new job. You are sooooo lucky to have one. I've been trying and trying and nothing *pout* I do look forward to any comments/feedback you have and hope you enjoy the latest part of Fantasy/Reality.
"Happy Early Thanksgiving - Backstreet on AMA's - More NKOTBSB tour dates!"
I want to wish everyone a happy early Thanksgiving. I'm actually more excited for all the sales that will happen on Black Friday. I will be one of those crazy people who go to the stores early in the morning to hopefully score great deals.
Who saw Backstreet and New Kids perform on the American Music Awards?
I thought it was really creative how they did a Glee-esque mash up of their songs. Nick was also looking really delicious in his vest on stage. I thought it was clever they added "NKOTBSB" into Larger Than Life in place of "how your love is affecting our reality."
In case you missed it you can watch it on backstreetboys.com in the media section.
I thought it was so hilarious when "Nick Carter" trended on Twitter after the perfromance aired. It was like all of a sudden the Twitter world realized how hot Nick is. Of course we've already known this for years. I bet Nick was feeling like the best thing since sliced bread when he found out he was trending.
Here are some pics of Nick at the American Music Awards gift suite. He's playing Just Dance 2. I don't get why he thinks that beanie looks good on him. (Although I wouldn't particularly throw him out of bed if he was wearing it :p)
Okay, I change my mind he looks good with the beanie here:
For more pictures you can visit Incomplete Men Gallery (You have to register to view the pictures): http://www.bsbphotos.net/gallery/
I am berry excited more NKOTBSB dates have been announced. To see all the tour dates visit backstreetboys.com and click on the tour tab.
I'm 100% going to their show in San Jose at HP Pavillion which is about 15 minutes away from my house! It's also about 7 minutes away from where I went to college, San Jose State University :D
I already bought a ticket to NKOTBSB show in LA but I'm also interested in going to the Vegas show too. LA is easier to drive to but I LOVE the area of Vegas. The downside is the drive to Vegas from my house is LONG.
We'll see how life goes and if my wallet stretches far for this tour. I can afford the concert tickets, it's the VIPs that kill me. I really splurged on VIPs for the This is Us tour and then the cruise. I don't know if I can splurge much for VIPs for NKOTBSB. (Although, I'd LOVE to do platinum VIP with Nick again because he's the freaking best tour guide everrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr :p)
If you plan on going to the San Jose show or LA show (maybe Vegas?) let me know. I'd love to meet all of you :D
I did a little rearranging on the Berry *Delicious* Nick Carter Stories part of this site. I hadn't touched it since 2007. I just got rid of the udpates part there, updated the link to Fantasy/Reality and The Episodes. I'd like to change it more in the future but I'm too lazy to do that right now *yawns*
Do any of you enjoy historical romance type stories? I got an idea over the weekend that I might dive into.
And if anyone cares I have about 1,270 words written for Fantasy/Reality part 57. Remember it's not too late to leave feedback on it. I like to know what you think.
April - I'm kind of sad it didn't work out as smoothly as I wanted between the 3 of us going to LA together. Like I told you on Facebook, it was nearly impossible to get 3 decent tickets together! Although, I hope we can do Vegas. I didn't realize you were close to St. Louis, Mo. From where I live to San Francisco is also 45 min. to an hour depending on traffic. I love how carefree Baylee is. I was nothing like him when I was a child. I was very quiet and shy. I actually still am quiet and shy lol Aw, I hope you enjoyed my update :D
Jenna - Aw, thank you so much for reading and enjoying part 56!
Jessica - I knew I wanted to change the picture in the banner but I didn't know what to choose. I went to http://kaos-online.com/gallery/ and looked at different pictures. Then I found a picture of Nick from the This is Us photo shoot. It was just what I was looking for. You can download it here: http://i55.tinypic.com/bg3arn.jpg
"Fantasy/Reality Part 56 - NKOTBSB - Penis Stage? - Cruisin' Baby"
In about 2 weeks I was able to write Fantasy/Reality part 56. What really fueled me to write this week was my disappointment that I didn't follow my heart and go to San Francisco on Monday to see Backstreet. They were in town along with New Kids on the Block to be on Ryan Seacrest's radio show which was broadcoasting from the Ritz Carlton in San Francisco.
On Sunday, I planned on going to San Francisco Monday morning. I had everything ready. I prepared my clothes, charged my camera, and had my train money. BUT at the very last minute, I decided not to go. I have been kicking myself ever since for changing my mind.
I know you're thinking, but Jocelyn you've seen & met Bsb so many times already, you'll live with missing out on one event, and you're going to the cruise anyway! What bothers me the most is that Backstreet was in a city that is less than an hour away from me. It's like I can see them in other places that takes me hours to travel to but I miss them the one time they're nearby & it doesn't cost hundreds of dollars to see them?
To take my mind off my mistake, I chose to continue writing Fantasy/Reality part 56. It was a great way for me to not dwell on my disappointment at myself for changing my mind. I ended up writing over 5,000 which I typically don't do.
Read Fantasy/Reality Part 56 by clicking here or the image below:
Any feedback is appreciated so feel free to leave your thoughts on the part.
It has been officially announced that Backstreet Boys will go on tour with New Kids on the Block in 2011. Both groups have even merged their names together: NKOTBSB. What do you all think of this?
I would prefer Backstreet to tour on their own but it's nice to know they're touring again. As of right now 5 dates have been confirmed with rumors that more are coming.
Here are the dates:
June 9, 2011 - Toronto, Canada @ Air Canada Centre
Right now I'm aiming to go to the LA date. If there's anymore CA dates and a Vegas date then I'll consider those too. Let's just hope the presale for LA goes smoothly on Monday ;)
Backstreet & New Kids are in US Weekly this week:
When the layout for the NKOTBSB stage was released, there was talk on Twitter that it resembled a penis. Then the hashtag #penisstage became the number trending topic until Twitter pulled it down. The stage does look very phallic since there's a main stage at the front, then a long ramp, and then another stage at the end of the ramp.
Here's the seating chart from the Staples Center. The stage is the grey part.
Now I'm wondering where would be the best seat? Near the balls by the main stage? Near the length along the ramp? Near the tip?
In less than a month I'll be on the first ever Backstreet Boys cruise. I am so excited to leave California and be away from my family lol! I think I'm looking forward to that aspect of the trip more than seeing Backstreet :p
Are any of you going on the cruise? If so, please don't be shy and come up to talk to me. I'm meeting up with a couple of fans and I'll be roommates with a reader named Holly on the ship.
Also, if any of you have ever been on a cruise and you have any tips for me, let me know. I am a cruise virgin so I have no idea what to expect. I'm already dreading packing and getting seasick. I'm already planning to buy Dramamine & Bonine.
April - It was great chatting with you on AIM :) Brian & Leighanne's vow renewal was a bit over the top but I know if I had a chance to do something like that and had the financial means to do so, I would so do it :p I hope I can have enough strength to follow through with my goals. I've had too many doors shut in my face. It hurts not being wanted by companies. I'm going to try to apply to a school in San Francisco and one in Sacramento. The San Francisco school is my first choice but if that doesn't work out then I'm hoping I get into Sacramento. I even discovered a new major that I never knew existed. All this time I've been having trouble deciding on a major and then I discovered there's a major called Liberal Arts which basically means I can try classes in multiple subjects and not feel restricted to just one specialty. If I had known about that I think I would be in school already lol
I have a confession, when you gave me your address so I could send you the book, I looked up your city in wikipedia. According to wikipedia there's over 900 people in your town. I cannot imagine living somewhere with that amount of people. I then looked up my city on wikipedia and saw I live in a city that has a population of over 70,000.
Thank you for the compliment on The Call. That story has been on my mind for a while. I just never had the opportunity to get it into words. I have so many other stories too that are floating in my mind that I haven't had the chance to get out.
Jenna - I won't be buying a Toyota too anytime soon. At least not from Piercey Toyota because their salespeople are scum. I'm not in the market for another car but in the future, I'm going to make sure I research a dealership first OR I'll just go through a credit union to buy a car.
Sthephanny - I don't know if you got the tweet I sent you a few weeks ago but just in case you didn't I'll just repeat myself. If you want to read the blog that has my story Fantasy/Reality then you just need to go to this link: http://flirtingwithobscene.blogspot.com to read it. I made bedtimedelicious.blogspot.com private because someone was stealing my story and saying it was theirs. To prevent my story from being further compromised I blocked it from the public and then moved the story to http://flirtingwithobscene.blogspot.com
MPetrags - I don't know the future so I cannot say for sure whether or not Aaron will get married or have kids. From what I've observed with him is he's in love with being in love. He's been engaged how many times now? He seems like he wants to get married but hasn't found the right person. He definitely craves attention. I follow him on Twitter and he's tweets a lot and he likes to tweet compliments made to him. He also seems like he's a person who's a lot of talk but not much action. How long has he been saying he's going to officially release an album? I know he has some material out there I just think he needs to step it up if he really wants to be heard muscially again.
"NEW VISUAL :O "The Call" - "Yes, Sir" giveaway - Where's my 40 acre estate?!"
In my previous post I mentioned that I missed writing visuals. It's the type of fan fiction that inspired me to write and start my website. This prompted me to remember a few short stories I started but never finished.
Sometime in 2009 I got an idea for a visual. I know I wanted to title it "The Call." I wrote about half of it last year. I tried to finish it in 2009 but my brain just wouldn't come up with the "visuals" it took to make a visual.
On Thursday September 16th , I found "The Call" in an e-mail draft. I read it and felt it was time to finish it. I really had to dig inside myself to bring the rest of the story out of me. I started writing bits and pieces on Friday September 17th and finished it in the morning of September 19th. There were times I wanted to give up and just let the story continue to be unfinished.
Luckily I was able to jump over the hurdles in my mind. It felt good to write and finish a story independent from Fantasy/Reality. Don't get me wrong, Fantasy/Reality is my baby but it was nice not to worry about a pregnant chick for a moment :p
To coincide with the debut of "The Call" I'm giving away a copy of the book "Yes, Sir" that has my story "Pink is the Enemy. To enter you must read "The Call" and then follow the instructions at the end of the story.
Any feedback is appreciated. You're welcome to leave a comment on the story even if you're not entering my giveaway.
On September 2nd, 2010 it was Brian and Leighanne's 10th wedding anniversary. Footage from their party was aired on Entertainment Tonight. They decided to renew their vows at their 40 acre estate in Atlanta, Georgia.
Where's my 40 acre estate?! Their bathroom is probably the size of the house I live in -_-.
Brian and Leighanne are so adorable together. They look like they have a solid relationship.
You can watch the segment here:
April - I feel like I've fallen in a hole and I can't get out. I can't help but think about how when I was at ABC in 2008 I was climbing the ladder to the top only to have it suddenly topple over and have my dream of working in television snatched away from me without a reason. I just wish they hadn't been so shady and aloof with me. If they didn't want me or if I was doing a bad job, I would have preferred they said something rather than just leaving it all hanging without an official end or goodbye. Sometimes I wish I didn't want to pursue a career in the cutthroat media world. Sometimes I think, is all this effort to pursue what I want worth it?
It also frustrates me when I see my friends who are younger than me easily scoring jobs like it's nothing and being independent while I can't even get a volunteer job that pays nothing. Thanks for the luck in getting a Master's. I definitely need all the luck I can get. It's not going to be easy since there's tests I have to take and letters of recommendation I need to get which I think will be the hardest of all the requirements.
As for Julie going to community college, my theory is it's probably because the economy sucks and that impacts universities. They're not able to admit more students and tuition keeps rising.In California, all the universities are suffering major cuts all around. It's part of the reason I got rejected last year from San Jose State Unviersity's. I wasn't accepted because the university could only accept 7 students! :O (I hope I wasn't number 8 on the list :-\)
Plus I know there are some universities here that raised tuition by 10% which prompted students to protest all around the state last year. What a weird dealership you had to deal with. Maybe if you and Chris have time, you both should write a review of your experience at their Yelp page if they have one.
Buying a car is a serious decision so if you feel you need a new one then I say go for it. Ten years after your previous car purchase seems like a reasonable time to get a new one. My mom's 1998 Toyota 4runner has 4 wheel drive and we have NEVER used it lol We don't even know how to use it. I'm definitely not impressed with Toyota and how they deal with customers. I actually think all those recalls and negative press they've got from their cars malfunctioning is karma from how rudely they treat customers.
Steph W. - I hope you can see them again too. Plus Nick has plans to release a solo album so you never know he might even do a tour to promote that. I haven't bought The Pendant yet. I haven't even seen it. I'm trying to avoid anything related to The Pendant because I'm holding on to the slim chance Nick will premiere it in Los Angeles around Halloween time.
"The I can't think of a clever title post"
I'm wracking my brain for something to babble about and all that is entering my mind are topics that either piss me off or make me feel depressed. I'll do my best to spare you from my Debbie Downer/Woe is Me funk.
I got rejected from another potential job this week. It was my first job interview in months. I thought I had a good chance of getting hired since the job was at a website that deals with store discounts. If you've visited my other website Eliminate Full Price, you would know how passionate I am about saving money and showing people it can be done. The job interview was the worst I've been through in my life. It felt more like an interrogation.
Sometimes I wish I was interested in other fields like medicine, engineering, accounting, or law. I am just so frustrated with the constant "thanks but no thanks" I get from prospective employers.
It's emotionally draining looking for a job and developing a career. I am tired of being ignored and/or rejected. I am even more tired of being at home. It's even taking a toll on my body. In July I visited my doctor for a routine check up and blood test. When my blood test results came out, my doctor told me that my Vitamin D levels were low and that I needed more sunshine. I'm currently taking Vitamin D supplements to prevent osteoporosis.
I have been unemployed for almost 2 years and I can't take it anymore. I do feel fortunate that I am in a position to explore my options and that I'm not tied to other obligations. I'm not married. I don't have kids. I don't have debt. (Thank goodness!)
I've started to research Master's Degree programs in California. I considered pursuing another Bachelor's Degree in Broadcast Journalism but through reading advice on Google, I found it is more beneficial to have a Master's than another Bachelor's.
Some of the Master's Degrees I'm considering at Mass Communication, Broadcast Journalism, or Television/Film. I know I want a career in the media. I had a taste of it when I worked at ABC and I have missed that environment so much. Have any of you taken the GRE exam? I noticed most Master's programs require an applicant to have taken the GRE.
Speaking of ABC, I recently found out the talk show I worked for went off the air on September 10th. I wish I knew the real reason it was taken off the air.
You know what I miss? I miss writing Nick Carter visuals. They used to come so easily to me. It's not that I don't think Nick is hot anymore. I still think he's hot as hell.
I have two different visuals I wrote many months ago where I am stuck at the sex part. It's so frustrating.
Anyone have ideas for visuals they wouldn't mind sharing with me? I feel like I'm out of Nick Carter themed fantasies -_-
In case you missed it, here's Nick with Shawn Desman and a guy named Tebey. They supposedly made music for Nick's solo album. I was really fascinated by Nick's bicep starting at 0:11
A picture of Nick with Shawn:
A picture of Nick with Tebey:
I really love how Nick has his awards on his walls. Someday, when I own a home, I hope I can decorate my walls with my book covers and awards.
It's less than a month till my 25th birthday. I turn 25 on October 5. It scares me a bit that I'll be a quarter of a century old. I don't feel 25 at all.
Also, if you're interested, I have a box of Coach pencils on eBay. You can bid on them by following this link: http://cgi.ebay.com/ws/eBayISAPI.dll?ViewItem&item=220666677661
April - Aw thanks for thinking the latest chapter is fanfuckingtastic lol I think I saw Julie's Facebook profile pop up on the "People You May Know" section on my Facebook page. I don't want to add her when my profile picture is of me and Nick lol That's good she's going to community college but I thought she was the type who could afford going to a university since she did paegents. Walking in high heels does take a lot of practice. It seems everyone in Hollywood wears heels. I prefer flats or wedge type shoes. That was so rude of the dealership holding your cell phone and house key hostage. You would think if they wanted your business they would treat you with extra politeness. That's great you had your friend Chris to help you with getting your stuff back. Car dealerships are so shady. Toyota charged my dad nearly $200 to fix the car my mom uses because it's shaking so badly. The Toyota employee claimed to have fixed it but it's still shaking! My dad went back and this time he spoke to a mechanic. My dad told him what happened the first time he visited and the mechanic was confused. So the mechanic and my dad went to the guy my dad talked to the first time and the guy tried to act dumb about the first visit.
Jenna - Aw, you're so sweet. It was a slow writing process but I'm happy you think part 55 is great. Stay tuned for part 56. I'm in the middle of brainstorming it.
"NEW! Fantasy/Reality Part 55 - Nick likes giving oral sex to roses/Backstreet Time Doesn't Apply in Canada: My Review of seeing Bsb in Winnipeg"
It only took me about 5 months but I finally present to you Fantasy/Reality Part 55. I appreciate any feedback you can provide. My advice is to absorb every word because it might be another 5 months till part 56 comes out (I hope not!).
Read Fantasy/Reality part 55 here:
Just click on the image below:
I'm still working on replying to feedback for part 54 but I should be finished with that soon.
I feel so bad for taking so long to update! It's not that I don't know what to write. It's more I'm having trouble putting what I see in mind into words. I actually have most of the story laid out in my mind.
While I wrote, I'd stare at the screen as I wracked my brain for ways to put what I wanted into words. There was one Sunday morning where it took me about 3 hours just to write a sentence :'(
I think one of my downfalls is I want the words to come out perfectly and when it's only 99% of what I want, I struggle so hard to get that 1% to make it perfect.
I haven't watched Nick's short film "The Pendant" yet. I know it's been leaked online but I don't want to watch it right now. I've been doing my best to avoid spoilers. I'm holding onto the slim chance he'll premiere it around Halloween time in LA.
I think this picture AJ tweeted of Nick and Howie sleeping is so adorable!
I had the priviledge of flying to Winnipeg, Manitoba, Canada to see Backstreet Boys in concert on August 11th. I wouldn't have been able to go on that trip if I hadn't won plane tickets from mycokerewards.com.
It was quite an adventure filled with flight delays and being late. I had to learn the hard way Backstreet time does not happen in Canada.
You can read all about my trip and the Bsb concert I went to on my other blog:
To bait you into reading my review, here's a clip I filmed of Nick's delicious hips during PDA in Winnipeg ;)
If that's not enough bait, here's a picture I took of Nick being delicious during "She's a Dream."
If the video clip and picture isn't enough bait then you're missing out on what I wrote about Nick giving what looked like intense oral sex to a rose :p
If you are able to read through my entire review, I will mentally send you brownie points :D
I know most of you are thinking how I'm able to afford going to so many Backstreet Boys concerts and do VIP at the same time. Sometimes I feel like I have to justify myself even though it is my money and I should do whatever I please with it.
Living with my parents and cousins isn't fun but it's free so that helps me a lot. I don't worry about paying rent and utilities.
I held onto the money I made from ABC very tightly. While I had a paycheck I would deposit about 3/4's of my check into the bank and use the remaining 1/4 to get gas for my car, pay for my train to San Francisco, and food.
What also helped me so much during the "This is Us" tour was I sold a lot of items on eBay. The money I earned from eBay helped pay for the very expensive VIP sound checks. Also winning gift cards and various prizes from contests helped. I used most of the gift cards I won toward filling up my car with gas.
When I saw the "This is Us" tour in California & Nevada, I planned out every possible scenario and did the math to see if it was within my budget. Sharing hotel rooms with other Bsb fans was also a big help for me.
My life may not be exactly where I want it to be professionally but I am thankful I have the liberty to travel and see Backstreet Boys too.
Steph W. - I am very thankful I was able to see Bsb so many times in concert. They are just so incredible live. I can't get enough of the energy they put out. Don't worry about not seeing Bsb this time around. There's a good chance they might visit Ohio again in the future. Going to college and getting an education is much more important.
April - lol @ "Pure velvetta" I think I'm going to borrow that from you. The sad part is... I think the opening act, Christian TV, grew on me just a teensy tiny bit. He performed a song called "Naked" and I found it on his myspace and now it's stuck in my head :-[ I wish I was the kind of girl who could walk in heels too! (Especially since I'm a short.) I'm paranoid if I wear heels that some emergency might happen where I'd have to run and I don't want to be running in heels. No, I don't think it's wrong you laughed at the implant rumor :p A part of me wishes I knew the exact reason why he skipped out on VIP that day. It'll be one of those things I'll never know. Pardon me if this sounds silly but when you said you follow Julie around, do you mean on Twitter or in person? lol Because the term "follow" has another meaning now thanks to Twitter :p Thanks for having the patience to read my concert reviews. I hope you have some more patience left to read my Winnipeg review :p I am just so happy that my entire car wasn't stolen and that there was no indication of forced entry. I'm just kicking myself for not taking the extra precaution to locking my doors and making sure to not leave anything valuable in my car.
Joanna - Aw, thanks for the compliment on my picture with Nick in Napa. (It's actually a group picture of me and Backstreet but I just cropped it to me & Nick :p) He seems to love flannel lately. He wore the same flannel shirt during Jimmy Kimmel in October 2009 so technically have two different pictures with Nick wearing the same flannel shirt lol! (And to think I do my best to make sure I'm not wearing the same top in pictures I take with Bsb).
Suzanne - Thank you for the heads up on the link to the "The Episodes" not working. I've been meaning to fix that for months :-\ You can read "The Episodes" by clicking on this link: http://flirtingwithobscene.com/episode.html
Jenna - I love your enthusiam for wanting new parts for Fantasy/Reality. I'm sorry that I've kept you and other readers in suspense for months. Thank you for checking my website for updates and I hope you enjoy the latest part. Aw, you went to see Bsb in Vegas at the Mandalay Casino in July? If I had known, we could have met there since I went to their concert in Vegas too. I agree, it was a great concert although it was kind of weird standing in a pool. Minus the hot weather, I love being in Vegas.
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